Call it the Valentine's Day Blues

Yesterday was Valentine's day, and me and two of my best friends and I went out as singles to see a movie together. We all had a great time, laughed a bunch. I really had a blast.

However, today I find myself in a strange mood. I feel like it's hitting me for the first time in a while, that I really feel lonely by myself. I mean, the last 6 years of my life were with boyfriends. And I broke up with my last one in April 2008.

This time it was different, because we had a baby together. Long story short, things just really didn't work out between us, and we both agreed that we tried and it's better off being on good terms and going our own ways.

I've been quite busy all year taking care of my son, and getting myself pulled together after the separation. I've been trying to adjust and live on my own, and it's been challenging emotionally. I can say though that I'm doing pretty good. Today I've applied to college in Web design for September 2009 to help me get a career started so I can be completely independent financially. I hope all that goes well, and I'm definitely looking forward to it.

Despite all the good things looking up for me, I'm still missing being with someone. I love being affectionate, and having a partner for ...everything! you know? I'm touch starved, and miss being intimate. I miss being flattered and complimented. I miss cuddling, and talking about everything and anything. I miss kissing! boy, do I ever love kissing!

I really hope I can find a good partner, who can love me, protect me, confide in me, laugh with me, make love to me, and who can take good care of me, and my son. (In the sens of accepting him, not taking over ownership sorta deal. He still has his daddy). I'm not in a rush to jump into a relationship right now, but I know I definitely hope to find my soul mate.

This music video makes me nostalgic for love



And that's my serious post. I just needed to get it out of my system :P